Thank you! I thank you for understanding me! I thank you for giving me satisfaction even when I am not understood. I thank you for your help. I thank you for your guidance. I thank you for encouragement. I thank you for strength. I thank you for who I am. I thank you for my gifts. Lord, I just thank you for everything!
I feel so proud to say I am basically done. Last week before I even met with my professor, I was already proud and felt like my paper was beautiful and complete. After meeting with my professor, I am proud to say all I really have to do is read back through part two add mini headings and see if I need to make some of my paragraphs smaller.
My parents also had the chance to read through my paper. My dad said it was really good, and my mom said she was so proud. She said my thesis was beautiful, real, and it made her laugh and cry.
I worked so hard. I decided to just leave my thesis as a hard copy, but I am considering doing more in the future.
I know none of this would be possible without God. I also thank my parents Deborah Burr and Dr. Lamont Burr, my professor Dr. Maria (Mia) Christine Zamora, and my classmates Jessica Taylor and David Murphy. I truly appreciate everything.
So, I really just want to use this post to state the accomplishments/changes that occurred since the last blog post. The second scheduled open dialogue was successful. There were unexpected moments beyond the expected unexpected moments, but I am satisfied with the results. I did a reflection after the open dialogue to briefly write down what occurred and what I learned. I have to say I learned more about my parents and myself. I am so proud my parents felt free to answer however they pleased, and I am proud of my myself. Only a couple of things were really prepared like the questions, the brief introduction before the open dialogue that stated what it was for etc., and when and where the open dialogue was going to take place. I also recorded myself on my phone for a few seconds just to make sure the volume was right. I thought about the questions. I knew how I would respond to certain questions because of my own personal feelings, but I did not go out of my way to memorize my answer or even write them down. To be honest, my dad asked questions that put me their position to just think really quick and respond. Overall, I am grateful for all the help I received and even the excitement to help.
This week I thought about some more questions I could ask, and I intend on looking at my paper again today to see if anything else comes to me. I originally planned for the conversation or open dialogue with my parents to be this past Sunday, but my dad was not feeling well so I rescheduled. As weird as this sounds, I am nervous. But, I am always nervous (LOL). I want to be as prepared as I can be, but there might be something magical about preparing a little and just letting the rest happen. I want to thank Dr. Zamora for helping me with the questions and expanding my original idea to incorporate my parents. Both of my parents have agreed to be a part of the open dialogue, and my dad is really excited. He likes to be included and discuss how he feels about certain topics. I am looking forward to hearing what they have to say.
On Thursday, I worked on my paper some more. In the process of incorporating what I previously wrote down in my journal, I started making changes, and rethinking/contemplating some of the comments one of my group members made in the past. I want to make my paper as clear as possible, and I see some areas where I need to elaborate. Just like prayer is "a process" so is this paper which discusses prayer (Murray,"Teach Writing as a Process Not Product" 3).
Right now, I am just going to review what I have. I haven't really been talking to anyone about my paper lately. I want to talk to my dad again. I loved our conversation the last time we spoke. I look forward to what Dr. Zamora and my group members have to say as well.