This week was all about junctions, intersections, and overlays. My creative piece is so heavily informed by actual events I am processing in my life, that I cannot help but to see so much, standing here at the corner of Life and Art.
It’s an intersection, really. And I feel the pull to either go down the Art path, and throw myself into my creative writing, or to keep it moving down the path of my Life. But with any intersection, one must make a decision. It’s a timeless question, very “Robert Frost,” almost, but it’s totally how I feel. Choosing one path is exclusive of the other. I cannot walk my Life road and my Art road, as much as I try. And it’s part of my guilt as a working mother who’s also attending graduate school.
The only solution, then, is to pull a Hamlet, and not decide anything at all! To stand here, at the intersection of Life and Art, and not make a decision yet, about my time, and how I am going to allocate it.
From here, I can see a little ways down each road: my looking Literature Review for this course, my final project for my elective; and down the other path: work obligations, family functions, dentist appointments for the kids, all the holiday crap I still have to do! The view is okay, but I can’t just sit here all week.
I did actually finish about a two page Research Proposal (not sure how long those are supposed to be?) so that’s progress.
But I find so many similarities right now between my life and my creative piece that it’s hard to choose one. I’m teaching the Pardoner’s Tale at work, and the kids actually like it. Thinking about forgiveness for sins, while also preparing my daughter for her First Reconciliation was a nice overlap. And it also made me think of all the things that would happen in the future.
Speaking of which, this blog is supposed to be about planning for the future (another intersection) by looking forward break. The thing is, for me, it’s not much of a “break” at all. Be cause I teach, I only have a week off, and that is usually spent dealing with Christmas Eve (huge in my family), Christmas Day (having my in-laws over), seeing family and friends I never have the time to during the school year, and then getting the house put back in order before going back to work, which is a one-day turnaround for me this year. So, unfortunately, I think most of my time is going to be spent doing all that on my week off. And before class starts up again in January, hopefully, I’ll have some more content generated so I can really focus on the more technical aspect of this project in Thesis II.