My thesis is coming along well! I have most of my Literature Review done, which is arduous for me and something that I find quite difficult to keep my attention stimulated for. A good deal of repetition is to be expected within such an assignment in nature alone.

As for the actual thesis, THESIS, I have forty pages drafted, over half of which are ready to be read by the professor cooperating on me with it. I should have the other twenty finalized within the next week.

More sources have been discovered that I have on my queue to look through, though a good deal may be disregarded because the stories planned to tell are already abundant in number – inclusion all depends on quality. More specifically, the quality of each source as they relate to the thematic tie-in of masculinity (I’ll keep further context vague here because that’s more fun for anyone who may eventually reads it – I don’t like to give things away) that runs throughout my project.

Besides all that, an electronic component is being worked on, and should be completed well-enough for submission in my e-lit course, and perhaps it will be something that I can further deepen later on within the following semester.

That is all for now, so for now, enjoy the now.

This week I am focusing on polishing my pages, making sure that they are cohesive, and fleshing out my Lit Review.

I hope to have the pages polished and finished by this time next week so I can really focus on my Lit Review. I have one more source I want to finish reviewing that I think will be added so that is what I plan to do for the next week and half.

Thinking ahead, I will be working on college applications over the break and that will be my main focus. I do plan to plot and continue building out my thesis as well we compiling more sources for my research.

As I’ve been getting feedback on my thesis and writing away. I’ve been thinking about the purpose of my novel. I finally have an answer and thankfully it’s not too late.

The novel represents the education system and The Organization represents everything that we should have learned in schools that would have been useful life skills. Though, the highest ranking subjects are: fighting, hacking, poisons, weaponry, and linguistics. (This is what the novel will focus on.) Over the years, people felt it was more important to focus on those as they are more prevalant in society and students loved them more than anything else.

With that said, I do have to shift my research to look at the education system, standardized tests, amd rules and laws within the eduaction system.

The fun part will be dedicating this weekend to diving head first into the ocean of available research in hopes of finding valuable sources. (High hopes for a 48 hour period but I got this!) The not so fun part will be actually reading it over the next week and churning out a literature review.

The main goal for this week(end) is to get those sources, then the next goal is to read through and write a literature review. Last step is to write the novel, which I feel like may be the easiest but I’ve never written a novel and mt creativity isn’t very on demand – it comes when it wants, usually in the middle of the night.

This pic is so tough whenever I see it my motivation goes ^^^^

So there is this prompt that is automatically provided each time I type up one of these blogs, and I just decided to actually focus on it now! I’ve been doing these for a good while, so why not?

This one is “list five things you’re good at.” I’ll do three!

1. Getting Random Bursts of Writing Vigor: A little known secret about me is that I rarely put things together piece by piece. Fortunately, despite the fact that I only write when such a tasks feels like the exact thing that I want to do in any given moment, that moment always comes before an assignment is due. This is not to claim that I don’t revise and edit and trudge through arduous aspects of writing when needed, but to write stuff I need a spark. I can almost feel it build up over time, like, “in 5 days I’ll be ready.” It may come sooner, or after, but my guestimation is never far off. Like working out, I just do what feels right. So I’m good at seducing my muse is what I’m saying if you think that way.
2. Marathons: I touched on this prior, I’m good at trudging through the arduous aspect of writing, of which can simply be writing a lot. Whenever I run I literally run until I puke, no stopping. I guess the pain makes me feel alive or something edgy like that, whatever, it is eye-opening stuff. Writing is the same way, but I gotta be careful. On Saturday I came in with that burst mentioned prior, but a thought fly came to mind, and rather than writing about my thesis I wrote about people that mean a good deal me. Right here, right now. I didn’t even notice that six hours went by. Gotta be careful more often I guess.
3. Writing to Music: This one may be a bit of a cop out, but it is really important, because I always write to music, which reflects. If I’m listening to a 15 minute tool song with gradual builds and near-orgasmic/through gouging climaxes, my writing may represent this quality. If I’m listening to a Tyler, the Creator track from his post-’17 era of substantial quality, expect something flowery, more symmetrical, curious, even sentimental idk. I can guide influence well without it being intentional, but organic. This is my favorite aspect of my writing.

A little something different for this week, but how my week has gone regarding my thesis writing is all there, maybe not in a super direct way. but sometimes I gotta have a little bit of fun with these or I’ll feel like Groundhog Day (1993) and that ain’t the wave.

Okay, so, any mental blockage that I’ve been experiencing has just … faded away! I am rejuvenated and ready to go into Full Gear, mainly because I attended AEW’s Full Gear PPV event, and it was probably the best time that I have ever had at wrestling show. This claim doesn’t even stem from the fact that I sat second row ringside at the Prudential Center, or that my friends were present in the venue as well, but because the show was phenomenal. It was everything that AEW fans needed post-All Out (where the show has been missing that “special,” ELITE something).

I have written about 35 pages worth of material, 33 of which are considerable in quality – still not what I would claim as “ready,” but I wouldn’t mind letting a professor read them, for instance.

That stated this past class has really helped me to weave together all of the fragmented stories, moments, and aspects of the professional wrestling craft that I want to focus on together. There is a stronger emotional core here and depth of my own person than I even realized. Sometimes it is such a benefit to show considerate and good people a more open side of yourself. This is something that I have sheltered myself from for a long time, but I try to be more a part of what lies outside of my shell in a sincere and vulnerable way.

Here’s to the most depressing time of the year, optimistically!

I’m not the most “holiday” kinda person.