The Continuation

I could sit here and write my final blog post with a plethora of hopes, wishes, and dreams that I have over winter break regarding my thesis journey but I also want to be realistic. This semester was not my greatest academically and personally. I encountered mental health challenges more than I expected especially being that I completed my first year of graduate school virtual and did well. Unfortunately, I did not experience the same outcome this semester and with that, I want to take the break to still focus on my thesis but also on myself. I share Hugo’s sentiments that “The constant self-degrading thinking, isolation and almost absent-presence has helped me realize what it is I might want in life after this – happiness in solitude.” This sentence touched me as this semester I realized how often I depend on others for my own happiness. There’s so much that I need to work on within myself and my confidence and I hope that winter break allows me to do so. I still work full-time and with my position, I am “off” per se from December 24, 2021, through January 1, 2021, as long as I am not on call. Thankfully, I am not. With this, I aim to take December 20, 2021, until January 2, 2021, for myself and my well-being. Whether that’s journaling, rediscovering who I am, or partaking in activities I once enjoyed I want to add it to my list. I go back into the office on January 3, 2021, and being that I will be on a nine-to-five schedule I believe this presents the perfect opportunity to pick up my thesis work. Being that this semester wasn’t the greatest, I need to put energy into my thesis before the spring semester starts. I do not want to abandon it and come back in the same position of feeling lost that I am in now. Over break, I aim to work on figuring out how to include my personal experiences regarding work-life balance into my thesis. I have encountered so many challenges and I think reflecting on what has occurred cured will not be strenuous but rather enjoyable as I also get to view what should not occur for next semester. Addiitonally, I would like to create a solidified outline for my thesis. Knowing me, things will change but I need to begin somewhere. Having numerous ideas floating around will not be helpful. I find that it will hinder me in getting started. I need a solid plan to follow until I begin the revision process during the spring semester. Lastly, with only having a few students approved to reside on campus during break, there should not be too many incidents *knocks on wood.* With this, I aim to begin thinking of interview questions and potentially conducting a few interviews. They do not have to be perfect but it’ll permit me to get a feel of things and what needs to be altered. I find that these are realistic goals and at the end of the day, I must put faith and confidence in myself and know that I can accomplish this. Winter break will not necessarily be a “break” but rather a continuation.

I Had The Best Day With You Today

It’s been a few weeks of being in all sorts of transitory and symbolic places; bus terminals, subway cars, airports, and the hospital. Thankfully, my uncle recuperated well enough to fly home this Friday, and so I found myself helping out with facilitating a drive on the Belt Parkway, to drop him and my aunt off at LaGuardia. But, then it was my father’s turn to experience a health scare, and while my mother and my brother were able to get a handle on things, the fear still hasn’t vanished. I wrote in my second blog that I know at some point, things like this are possible, and that yes, at some point, my loved ones will pass on. I just always thought that before falling ill or passing, there would be some sort of build-up, some sort of indication like there was with my grandmother, but everything thus far has been sudden, unpredictable, and uncontrollable. I can’t even fully explain what it felt like over the weekend; the cognitive load that comes with experiencing this sort of thing twice in less than a month is crushing, and a liminal space I do not want to be in. I’m being entirely too vulnerable here, but I can’t say I’m surprised; things may not always be perfect, and we may butt heads way too often, but yeah, my Dad is my best friend, and the person I’m growing up to be a better version of, and I want him there to see it all unfold. Who else is going to call me out when I’m wrong or out of line? Or take me on an unnecessary Costco trip to take my mind off of how frustrating people and school can be while I eat “pizza”? Who else would I work out with at the local park when I need to go for a run but don’t want to be alone?

After a semester of having to commute together, I think there’s a lot more I’ve come to understand and realize about exactly what kind of things my Dad specifically has always sacrificed and braved for his family, so I have to have this semester end on a strong note, not a swan song. I owe him the bare minimum. After this, I also know that a good portion of my winter break is going to be dedicated to hanging out with my parents. I don’t want to bring the mood down any more than I already have for my last blog of the semester, so I’ll try to capture my emotions and give hope for the future with the tune of “The Best Day” by Taylor Swift. (And naturally, Taylor’s version!)

Saturday was a split day since the above was happening, and I still had a commitment I had to fulfill in New York. Luckily, I’ve always been good at keeping my wits about me (having a positive internal monologue, as well as a stress ball handy helps!) and I was able to navigate my way from home to Park Slope, where another life-altering event took place; I met Stan Fischler, the living legend, the Maven, the greatest hockey historian at his book signing! It was surreal hearing his jokes, stories about the Dodgers and hunting down ice cream in a New York Blizzard, and learning how to make an egg cream in 90 minutes. None of this could have been possible without the help and mentorship of Professor Falkowski from the Communications department! It’s insane to look back and realize it all started the day I wore my Jim Craig replica jersey for courage when I had to present in Samina’s class for the first time; the Miracle on Ice led to another miracle! 

With this, of course, comes an even deeper immersion into the world of hockey, that I’m naturally excited for, and yet somewhat apprehensive of. By taking on the role of a gameday volunteer with the Riveters, and then hopefully getting to a Devils game from a perspective beyond just that of a fan, I’m in closer proximity to the things I love than I ever thought would be possible. 

It feels like my dreams that always seemed impossible are right in front of me; my Dad’s words of wisdom, that life can change at any moment, as long as you’re there, finally make sense. And I just know that becoming more involved in this regard is going to comprise a good amount of my time over winter break as well. Believe me, I’m not complaining one bit! I know that it’s a once-in-a-lifetime chance, but after how much I struggled this semester, it’s also my light at the end of the tunnel. Hockey in general has always had a sense of hope attached to it for me; like I said many blogs ago, every season is a fresh start, with experience. I’ve met some incredible and inspiring people along the way, and I have to do things right by them, and hopefully, I’ll be that person for someone else in the future. 

Other things will also be weighing on me heading into winter break as well; post-Christmas is the start of a serious, committed job search, there’s Student Government training and other assorted responsibilities, and hopefully somewhere in between some time to spend with friends, but also by myself, doing things I love again! These past few months have been mostly utilitarian, with even normally relaxing activities like journaling and working out always having the subtext of getting this over with so you can get back to work. Working through this all-or-nothing mentality is looking more and more like a Herculean task by the second, but something says I can, I must, if I stay the course. And as childish as it may seem to some, I do want to go out and experience some life! Now’s the time for impromptu day trips and bookstore adventures and concerts and hockey games. It’s the perfect moment for savoring warm cups of coffee and daring to bake something new. 

Rest assured, there’s going to be plenty of progress made on my thesis as well since it’s still haunting me in everything I do. It’s very overdue, but thank you to everyone who provided feedback after my presentation a few weeks ago! The dream semester finally came true for me, since the content across all my classes clicked and connected! I gained the high ground, intellectually. The most invaluable class proved to be my out-of-program elective, Conflict Resolution. It’s cheesy, but this is indeed the class that’s changed my life more than any other course I’ve taken from undergrad to now. I was challenged and constantly engaged with the material, in the class and outside of it too. (Honestly, I don’t think I could have made it to the end of the semester without employing a lot of the skills I learned from the material.) Promulgation or the clear statement of goals is a big part of conflict resolution, and I’m writing now that at least an hour a day will be dedicated to working on my thesis. And that hour can manifest itself however it likes.

It might be early morning or late night. Sometimes, that one hour will be just sitting and thinking about what the logic next step in writing or research is, rather than the go go go action that I’ve favored as of late. Maybe I will do some more research! And of course, there’s going to be a deeper dive into how to apply my methodology of protocol analysis, as well as discourse analysis so this thesis isn’t one-dimensional. And hopefully, most days that one hour will spiral into two or three. 

Looking back on everything I learned this semester and everything I survived, I can say I’m a better version of myself in spite of all of it. Sure, there’s still a little big chip on my shoulder, and sticking to school, there’s a lot I wish went differently, but there’s hope on the horizon. A while back, I compared my thesis progress to a hockey game and said I was on a three-on-five penalty kill. But, it looks like I’m back to even strength, and there might even be a line change on the horizon! (The Devils shutout win tonight is clearly inspiring me as well!) Congrats to Amber, Hugo, Tom, and Kelsey on graduating! I know you’re all going to be doing some amazing things, and know that you will be missed.

I’ll leave you with “Learning to Fly” by Tom Petty, and I hope you have an amazing winter break! 

I Had The Best Day With You Today

It’s been a few weeks of being in all sorts of transitory and symbolic places; bus terminals, subway cars, airports, and the hospital. Thankfully, my uncle recuperated well enough to fly home this Friday, and so I found myself helping out with facilitating a drive on the Belt Parkway, to drop him and my aunt off at LaGuardia. But, then it was my father’s turn to experience a health scare, and while my mother and my brother were able to get a handle on things, the fear still hasn’t vanished. I wrote in my second blog that I know at some point, things like this are possible, and that yes, at some point, my loved ones will pass on. I just always thought that before falling ill or passing, there would be some sort of build-up, some sort of indication like there was with my grandmother, but everything thus far has been sudden, unpredictable, and uncontrollable. I can’t even fully explain what it felt like over the weekend; the cognitive load that comes with experiencing this sort of thing twice in less than a month is crushing, and a liminal space I do not want to be in. I’m being entirely too vulnerable here, but I can’t say I’m surprised; things may not always be perfect, and we may butt heads way too often, but yeah, my Dad is my best friend, and the person I’m growing up to be a better version of, and I want him there to see it all unfold. Who else is going to call me out when I’m wrong or out of line? Or take me on an unnecessary Costco trip to take my mind off of how frustrating people and school can be while I eat “pizza”? Who else would I work out with at the local park when I need to go for a run but don’t want to be alone?

After a semester of having to commute together, I think there’s a lot more I’ve come to understand and realize about exactly what kind of things my Dad specifically has always sacrificed and braved for his family, so I have to have this semester end on a strong note, not a swan song. I owe him the bare minimum. After this, I also know that a good portion of my winter break is going to be dedicated to hanging out with my parents. I don’t want to bring the mood down any more than I already have for my last blog of the semester, so I’ll try to capture my emotions and give hope for the future with the tune of “The Best Day” by Taylor Swift. (And naturally, Taylor’s version!)

Saturday was a split day since the above was happening, and I still had a commitment I had to fulfill in New York. Luckily, I’ve always been good at keeping my wits about me (having a positive internal monologue, as well as a stress ball handy helps!) and I was able to navigate my way from home to Park Slope, where another life-altering event took place; I met Stan Fischler, the living legend, the Maven, the greatest hockey historian at his book signing! It was surreal hearing his jokes, stories about the Dodgers and hunting down ice cream in a New York Blizzard, and learning how to make an egg cream in 90 minutes. None of this could have been possible without the help and mentorship of Professor Falkowski from the Communications department! It’s insane to look back and realize it all started the day I wore my Jim Craig replica jersey for courage when I had to present in Samina’s class for the first time; the Miracle on Ice led to another miracle! 

With this, of course, comes an even deeper immersion into the world of hockey, that I’m naturally excited for, and yet somewhat apprehensive of. By taking on the role of a gameday volunteer with the Riveters, and then hopefully getting to a Devils game from a perspective beyond just that of a fan, I’m in closer proximity to the things I love than I ever thought would be possible. 

It feels like my dreams that always seemed impossible are right in front of me; my Dad’s words of wisdom, that life can change at any moment, as long as you’re there, finally make sense. And I just know that becoming more involved in this regard is going to comprise a good amount of my time over winter break as well. Believe me, I’m not complaining one bit! I know that it’s a once-in-a-lifetime chance, but after how much I struggled this semester, it’s also my light at the end of the tunnel. Hockey in general has always had a sense of hope attached to it for me; like I said many blogs ago, every season is a fresh start, with experience. I’ve met some incredible and inspiring people along the way, and I have to do things right by them, and hopefully, I’ll be that person for someone else in the future. 

Other things will also be weighing on me heading into winter break as well; post-Christmas is the start of a serious, committed job search, there’s Student Government training and other assorted responsibilities, and hopefully somewhere in between some time to spend with friends, but also by myself, doing things I love again! These past few months have been mostly utilitarian, with even normally relaxing activities like journaling and working out always having the subtext of getting this over with so you can get back to work. Working through this all-or-nothing mentality is looking more and more like a Herculean task by the second, but something says I can, I must, if I stay the course. And as childish as it may seem to some, I do want to go out and experience some life! Now’s the time for impromptu day trips and bookstore adventures and concerts and hockey games. It’s the perfect moment for savoring warm cups of coffee and daring to bake something new. 

Rest assured, there’s going to be plenty of progress made on my thesis as well since it’s still haunting me in everything I do. It’s very overdue, but thank you to everyone who provided feedback after my presentation a few weeks ago! The dream semester finally came true for me, since the content across all my classes clicked and connected! I gained the high ground, intellectually. The most invaluable class proved to be my out-of-program elective, Conflict Resolution. It’s cheesy, but this is indeed the class that’s changed my life more than any other course I’ve taken from undergrad to now. I was challenged and constantly engaged with the material, in the class and outside of it too. (Honestly, I don’t think I could have made it to the end of the semester without employing a lot of the skills I learned from the material.) Promulgation or the clear statement of goals is a big part of conflict resolution, and I’m writing now that at least an hour a day will be dedicated to working on my thesis. And that hour can manifest itself however it likes.

It might be early morning or late night. Sometimes, that one hour will be just sitting and thinking about what the logic next step in writing or research is, rather than the go go go action that I’ve favored as of late. Maybe I will do some more research! And of course, there’s going to be a deeper dive into how to apply my methodology of protocol analysis, as well as discourse analysis so this thesis isn’t one-dimensional. And hopefully, most days that one hour will spiral into two or three. 

Looking back on everything I learned this semester and everything I survived, I can say I’m a better version of myself in spite of all of it. Sure, there’s still a little big chip on my shoulder, and sticking to school, there’s a lot I wish went differently, but there’s hope on the horizon. A while back, I compared my thesis progress to a hockey game and said I was on a three-on-five penalty kill. But, it looks like I’m back to even strength, and there might even be a line change on the horizon! (The Devils shutout win tonight is clearly inspiring me as well!) Congrats to Amber, Hugo, Tom, and Kelsey on graduating! I know you’re all going to be doing some amazing things, and know that you will be missed.

I’ll leave you with “Learning to Fly” by Tom Petty, and I hope you have an amazing winter break! 

The End

It’s hard to imagine that I’ve made it to this point. I’ll be honest in saying that my biggest obstacle to everything, not counting external circumstances, was myself. Up until now I never had confidence in myself, I felt that I was somehow skating by and keeping myself invisible from sight. I still think that holds true, but what is most important is that I made personal discoveries for myself, and for that I will always be grateful to one of the most complicated periods of my life thus far.

The constant self-degrading thinking, isolation and almost absent-presence has helped me realize what it is I might want in life after this – happiness in solitude. I found out that I live this life for myself, and I need to stop sacrificing so much of myself for the sake of others. It’s tiring, and it lead to many moments I regret. Not anymore, once the semester ends I’ll be going away for a good while to really discover myself, and I hope by the end of it I can finally be happy with myself, even if just a little.

It’s a large part as to why I’m so happy where my thesis had lead me. I came into writing and art-making while trying to fit a ‘criteria’ of sorts for the labels, and I found myself become less of myself. I had a good grasp of what I wanted after leaving Rutgers, but Kean University really put that identity-crisis to the test and it made me understand that independence even more. This made me realize the inner connections of the self and creation, and I can live the rest of my life content knowing I have power over my own accordance in arts. I’m not a writer, photographer, poet, printer or painter. I’m simply just a creator.

Having the time to discover digital storytelling has been the most liberating part of my journey as it marries every single thing I love about creation into a form that I can feel empowered by. I’ve been talking and sharing with many digital authors, learning about their experiences and picking up a few habits myself. Expect more of these kinds of works in the future, I think that is the direction I want to head in.

I will continue tweaking this project well after the semester ends because I will never be wholly satisfied by it. It’s a reflection of my evolving thinking-process and I want to honor myself and the ones I lost in that piece. For now it is a cornerstone of my person. A testament to those I’ve lost and the ones I’m recovering. I hope everyone can learn something about themselves if they ever interact with it.

I’m not sure what else I can add, I’m not good at expressing. I guess I want to simply say thank you to everyone from the bottom of my heart, you have become my writing family and I feel validated in some ways when I’m around you all. I hope you understand that while I may never engage, I wish the best to everyone and I’m always looking towards your success.

Thank you.

-Hugo

Making Plans for My (Still Super Busy) Break

As the semester comes to a close, it’s time to start making some long-term thesis goals and specific plans to keep up my momentum between semesters. After talking with Dr. Zamora about my schedule, I’ve actually decided to postpone the second half of this thesis course until summer, when I’ll be able to work on it during the Writer’s Retreat. I’m definitely going to have to set some strict goals for myself, because otherwise I have a feeling it’ll be tough to keep a steady pace when I have such a long break.

Of course, for me, it’s not really going to be a break, since I have a full time job as a high school teacher. That’s actually the main reason I’m taking a step back from my thesis work; taking two graduate courses on top of teaching full time (all while fully in-person) was really difficult for me, and I don’t think I’d be able to handle such a workload again in the spring. 

Instead, I’m planning to register for just one course on writing creative nonfiction. My hope is that I’ll be able to use this course to somewhat continue working on my thesis, as I would like my final product to be a detailed narrative about teaching during the pandemic. I also think this class will be useful to explore creating more vignette-style pieces of memoir like the one I shared during my presentation. I’m still toying with how much creativity to include in my final product, so a course on writing creative nonfiction will be the perfect avenue for me to explore these types of questions. 

In the time between the fall and spring semesters, I’d like to finish transcribing my interviews. Having the full text of all interviews available will be useful because I hope to draw inspiration from them during my spring class. My goal is to continue doing some light analysis/coding throughout the spring semester—things like highlighting significant words or phrases and making note of patterns that arise between the interviews—so that by the time summer rolls around, I can jump right into the writing process without too much difficulty.

Of course, as this semester’s blog posts have proven, I’m an incurably chronic procrastinator, so I’m a little (read: extremely) concerned that I’ll totally abandon my thesis until June, especially since next semester at work is going to be a busy one (in spring, I’ll be teaching three classes instead of the two I have now). Hopefully, though, taking a class that’s tangentially related to my thesis will help me stay on track!

Mapping Out The “Break”

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Looking back on how much I have accomplished this semester… I could have done more. I think that is the nature of a writer. Always thinking about how much we could have or should have done.

Despite the feeling of “regret” I am looking forward to a manageable course load next semester. Over the break I plan on drafting the final essays for my thesis project. I have the first six drafts, minus that one pesky section on the child study team, which leaves two final drafts of chapters seven and eight. With no other distractions I think that I will be able to get these drafts done before the spring semester.

I have ten days off from work, but four of those days are considered holidays so I will not be working on those days. It would be great to get essay seven done over break and then complete essay eight the first two weeks of the new year. Since I was able to get the outlines mapped out during my work in progress presentation it should be easy to work on these chapters in sections and then put them all together. I want to map out a time schedule each day to dedicate to writing. I need a writing chair or desk at my house to get into the zone. Home Goods here I come!

The only other thing I would like to do over break is scan my essays for teacher lingo or vocabulary to create my glossary. I will do this at the end of essay eight. It would be nice to have the entire body of work printed out to annotate for vocabulary and typos. This will also let me see where I can insert quotes.

I have not done any work to my literature review this semester so this will be a two or maybe three fold task. I will be scanning for vocabulary, do a light editing, and also marking off where to insert research or data to support my claims.

Getting these tasks completed by the start of spring semester will allow me to work on one essay per week. With these tasks out of the way I can edit one essay a week and build my new literature review. I want to include one or two sources per essay which will give me eight to 16 sources for my literature review. I have all my tangible sources gathered in a dusty pile in dining room. I will dust off the resources and support all my claims in the spring. Giving myself this eight to ten week revision period will allow me to spend some time with my sister on creating a final product that is visually appealing and marketable.

These are my hopes for break and I believe it is manageable.

Thank you for a great semester Dr. Zamora.

The Intersection of Life and Art

This week was all about junctions, intersections, and overlays. My creative piece is so heavily informed by actual events I am processing in my life, that I cannot help but to see so much, standing here at the corner of Life and Art.

It’s an intersection, really. And I feel the pull to either go down the Art path, and throw myself into my creative writing, or to keep it moving down the path of my Life. But with any intersection, one must make a decision. It’s a timeless question, very “Robert Frost,” almost, but it’s totally how I feel. Choosing one path is exclusive of the other. I cannot walk my Life road and my Art road, as much as I try. And it’s part of my guilt as a working mother who’s also attending graduate school.

The only solution, then, is to pull a Hamlet, and not decide anything at all! To stand here, at the intersection of Life and Art, and not make a decision yet, about my time, and how I am going to allocate it.

From here, I can see a little ways down each road: my looking Literature Review for this course, my final project for my elective; and down the other path: work obligations, family functions, dentist appointments for the kids, all the holiday crap I still have to do! The view is okay, but I can’t just sit here all week.

I did actually finish about a two page Research Proposal (not sure how long those are supposed to be?) so that’s progress.

But I find so many similarities right now between my life and my creative piece that it’s hard to choose one. I’m teaching the Pardoner’s Tale at work, and the kids actually like it. Thinking about forgiveness for sins, while also preparing my daughter for her First Reconciliation was a nice overlap. And it also made me think of all the things that would happen in the future.

Speaking of which, this blog is supposed to be about planning for the future (another intersection) by looking forward break. The thing is, for me, it’s not much of a “break” at all. Be cause I teach, I only have a week off, and that is usually spent dealing with Christmas Eve (huge in my family), Christmas Day (having my in-laws over), seeing family and friends I never have the time to during the school year, and then getting the house put back in order before going back to work, which is a one-day turnaround for me this year. So, unfortunately, I think most of my time is going to be spent doing all that on my week off. And before class starts up again in January, hopefully, I’ll have some more content generated so I can really focus on the more technical aspect of this project in Thesis II.

Respite

I can’t believe this semester is almost over. What a huge difference from how I felt on day one to now. I started this class so confused and discouraged, but now I see a clear path to the end of my thesis. I’m relieved to have the research portion pretty much done, but now I realize that the real work is looming and I’m feeling an anxiety of a different kind. I’m worried that I won’t be able to come up with enough stories for the creative part of my study. 

Over the break, I will review some old stories and see if any of them are suitable for a new memoir. I have a lot of brainstorming to do and lots of editing too. Right now, I am watching YouTube videos on memoir writing as well as rereading some of my favorite books to see what I like about them and what I can borrow from them for my own stories. So that’s it. I will be doing lots of thinking and hopefully some writing over the break. 

Congratulations to Tom, Amber, Kelsey, and Hugo! You did it! Good luck to you all in the next phase of your lives!

Wrapping Up

Thanks to Bailey for a lively discussion regarding the challenges inherent in the notion of “work-life balance”. This is a great topic for her final thesis work, and I was impressed with everybody’s thoughtful contributions to this conversation and several issues came up for Bailey to consider as she moves forward with refining her inquiry. Recent phenomena like the “great resignation” and the Gen Z push back commonly referred to as the “great reshuffle” are tipping point moments in this phenomenon. I appreciate how some of you emphasized the way work–life balance is understood differently from different cultural perspectives. And also, it was important to recognize the radical shift in these debates since the widespread scale up of virtual work since the pandemic. A new kind of critical labor literacy is in the making as we speak. I think Bailey now has a lot of food-for-further-thought, and I would love to see her center her own (individual/personal) perspective on this broad issue in some way within the thesis as we move forward in Spring.

Research Days (Spring 2022)

I would like to encourage all of you to consider presenting some of your work at RESEARCH DAYS 2022 (4/26-27/22). Registration for “Research Days 2022: Hybrid” is now live!  The deadline for students is set for February 13, 2022, so thinking about how to share some of your thesis work (something to mull over during the break) seems a good thing to tag at this stage.

Visit the website to view the registration guidelines, event format, important dates, and FAQ. If you have any questions, you can inquire via email – researchdays@kean.edu

https://www.keanresearchdays.com/

Final announcements

Remember that this week you should write a final thesis blog which points towards your plans for break, with an eye towards keeping your thesis “alive” during the long pause in our gatherings from Dec. 15 and the start of next semester. I hope you will all take a well deserved rest, and then I hope you can give your work some realistic/modest momentum before late January when I see you again.

Please remember we do not have class on Wed. Dec 8th (because Tuesday classes will meet on Wednesday that day). But I certainly look forward to meeting on Dec. 15th for our wrap-up celebration! There will be more information about the plan this week via email.

Keep going everyone. The light at the end-of-semester tunnel can be seen!

‘Tis the Season to be Writing

This is it, my final blog post for this semester. Can you believe it? 2021 really flew by huh? And as much as the workload this semester was somewhat exhausting, this semester went by quick as well. I wanted to give a shoutout to a few of my classmates: @TomRolston, @AmberGently, @HugoGatica and @KelseyCarter. Congrats to you guys for graduating this semester! I am sure awesome things await you and most importantly, now you don’t have to study anymore!!! *hopefully* 🙂 But I am definitely looking forward to next semester, although senioritis is really kicking in with me now itself.

As the winter break approaches, I have to make plans about how my thesis will go in terms of the amount of writing that will be done. According to my outline of progression, I have approximately 24 chapters that will be in this book, excluding the introduction and prologue of course. However, as I was writing and finishing up chapter six yesterday, I realized I wanted to break up one chapter into two. So, I expect this to happen more often which is why I am giving myself a leeway total of 30. In addition to that, my intention is to finish up my story by the beginning of the Spring break. And yes, it seems really ambitious but it’s possible. I have done it before, and I would like to repeat that again. The reason being, I know there will a lot of editing and revision needed because right now I am just throwing out ideas as I am writing. If it can be, I would like the Spring 2022 semester to be my “Editing and Revising” semester instead of writing.

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Because my work for my other classes has been done for the past two to three weeks, I am able to dedicate my time to my thesis for at least thirty minutes to one hour everyday. I hope that continues, I will try to make it continue. If I can have everything ready to go by January 21st the latest, that would be perfect. Sometimes our goals aren’t met, so I am not tying myself down to meeting this by the specific date. If it happens, awesome! If it doesn’t, no worries. I am just going with the flow right now. I guess with this being my last year of studying, my “super-good let’s-overwork-myself this-has-to-be-done” part of me is burned out. I don’t blame her, I am surprised it didn’t happen sooner. But I just want everything to go smoothly, especially in-person next semester. Hopefully it does…but Happy Holidays, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year in advance! May 2022 be a prosperous, healthy and safe year for everyone. See you next year in January (who knows…maybe with my thesis done!)